This message was posted anonymously from someone starting to cure himself of TMS.
October 20, 2002
I would like to become a case study for this site too as I am clearly a sufferer of TMS. I am in my early 20s and have only through discovering this website realised that I have a problem. I have been masturbating face down since I was very young (I guess about the age of 9 or 10). I do not have as serious a problem as others because I hump my hand after beginning a warm up against my bed mattress.
I have never ejaculated inside a woman during sex and initially I put this down to finding sex itself stressful but I now realise where this stress comes from - TMS.
However I have recently begun to masturbate in the normal way through being aroused by web porn in a sitting position and I have discovered that I have far more enjoyable orgasms in this way. Unfortunately, this does not help me to fall asleep as I still need a wank at bedtime and do it in bed the wrong way.
Tomorrow I will go to the chemists and purchase something that will help me to fall asleep easier for the next 7 nights and I will avoid internet porn for 7 days. At the end of this 7 day I will reward myself with some pornographic material if I succeed.
Tonight though I will be unable to have any sleeping aid so I will attempt to try and go without tonight.
I will let you know how I get along.
It's good that you've already learned to masturbate with your hand. All you need to do is to quit masturbating prone at bedtime. I don't know that you need to abstain since abstaining is to get you ready to masturbate by hand when you haven't done it before. Instead of giving up masturbating at bedtime, why don't you just do it by hand like you do when on the Internet?
It's also a problem if you think you can't get to sleep even one night without masturbating. That's a sign of masturbation dependence.
October 24, 2002
It has now been 4 nights without having a wank. This is really tough - I am getting spontaneous erections at work and the temptation is all there but if I can just make it to Sunday I know that it will be worth it. I am finding that I am really fidgity all of the time and I feel very tense. Also the slightest titillation on TV drives me insane. No more Fox for you! -Ed.
I am really glad though that I have found this site though. It has explained so much to me. I can't wait for the first time that I can have sex and actually enjoy it (although I did like the reputation that was circulating about me that I could last for an hour!)
I have tried to masturbate in bed on my back but have not been as stimulated as I have been looking at porn on the internet. The problem has always been that it is easy for me to just roll over and slip into the position that I am more used to. However, looking at porn on the Internet forces me to be in a different position.
I have learned that it is possible to fall asleep without wanking from this abstinance period, and I hope that as I try and combat TMS I will also be combatting excessive masturbation.
Just to clarify my position: There is nothing excessive about once to twice a day at your age. But if you're using masturbation as a sleep inducer to the point that you think you can't sleep without it, that's a problem.